Wednesday, July 30, 2014

the grass is always greener on the other side

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it's been more than two weeks since i last wrote an entry on this space and honestly it felt more like two months than weeks -_- TIME Y U PASS SO SLOW??? it's (almost) my third week here ever since I started working full time for the first time, and it's my first time working in a bank as well.

ever since I started working I realised I have a tendency to trap myself in discontentment and in a cycle I name as the "green cycle". I'd always find myself complaining in the company I'm in, then when I've moved on to the next company, I'd find myself picking on all the bad things about this new company and starting to appreciate the previous company even more, all because the grass is always greener on the other side. this proves to be a cycle because this has happened to me when I moved across 3 companies already, and it started since my internship days.

if you're a reader and you're seasoned in the workforce already, is it normal that I feel this way? and any advice on how to cope or eliminate this "greener" mentality? and if you're fresh in the workforce just as I am, is it just me or do you feel the same way too?

Monday, July 7, 2014

Segamat | Jementah


The extent of my awe remains constant everytime time I reminisce of how I was privileged to witness the amazing work that He has done during my first mission trip to Segamat & Jementah in March 2014. This has been one of the key spiritual milestone in my life that kept me holding on to my faith till date even when the violent tossing of the waves is causing everything else to dwindle down into the turmoil of the unknown. It has been a rough season not because anything tragic happened, but because I get to fully experience what it is like to be carried in the Potter's arms of Love on the road to purity- the journey to be refined as gold.

Sunday, July 6, 2014


Hebrews 12:27
This means that all of creation will be shaken and removed, so that only unshakable things will remain.

When all that I've always been finding security in start to shake and fall apart, it is so tough to keep my focus and eyes on the One whom I'd always forget is greater than my troubles and insecurities. This fight of faith and having repressed memories intermittently resurfaced is taking a toll on my weary soul and I'd wish so badly for time to fast forward itself to 4 years down the road when I can officially embark on a fresh journey of independence to provide for my family and myself. To intently seek His still small voice in the midst of chaos is like trying to look for a needle in a haystack, but that is all I can ever wish for right now.